Last week was very delicate for me. I exposed myself in ways I never thought I would by sharing my personal battle with my weight and how I'm trying to change that mindset. I also set forth my plan to do something about it: be active instead of repeatedly doing nothing. So I'll do a lifestyle change, not a diet. I will take my time instead of seeking instant results.
But my biggest takeaway from all of my self reflection and vulnerability was to remind myself and remember that I am more than what a number on a scale tells me.
* I am a woman
* I am a wife
* I am a mother
* I am a survivor of emotional abuse
* I am passionate
* I am caring
* I am a first-generation American
* I am excitable
* I am funny
* I am imaginative
It's never a bad idea to want to be healthy and strive to better yourself. However, it's just as meaningful, and honestly, necessary to remember that no one is ever defined by their weight. I am more than the size of my jeans. What are the things that make you you?
In my last post, I talked about how my pant size or the number on the scale doesn't define me - and it doesn't. I want to feel healthy and unchained from excess weight, not look in the mirror and see a size 2.
Sharing my struggles with weight and self-image was hard and embarrassing for me. Putting myself out there for people to look at and judge is an extremely vulnerable feeling (see photo above), but I felt it was necessary to keep my blog honest and transparent. Being my authentic self is super important to share and it also requires me to hold myself accountable. I'll be coming back to this topic again in the future and plan to keep you guys updated on my journey...
I'm curious, how long after a woman gives birth can she claim it's still the baby weight she has to lose? Is it within the first six months, a year? How long will it take me to be honest with myself and admit that maybe the extra weight I'm carrying might no longer be baby weight, but weight from lack of exercise and unhealthy eating habits?
I'm a twenty-something mama who honestly has no clue what I want to do in life at the moment. For the longest time that scared me but now I embracing it and documenting it here.